at times my heat hurts
sometimes my soul bleeds
i can feel my breath slipping away from me
this reality at time i cannot grasp
but alas this feeling does not last
it grips me uses me abuses me
but it cannot nor will it destroy me
i'm barely afloat in a turbulent sea
but this pain will not get the best of me
i have all to live and everything to to gain
which on any day outweighs the pain
i struggle but i am not beaten
i cry but i am not done
i try i try i try i try so hard...maybe too hard i try
fighter is my birth and fighter i will die
victim is my battle but war is not my life

The epic battle of the heart

Fighting the urge to scream
Fighting the urge to yell
Fighting the urge to say fuck you! and go to hell
Fighting my heart, burying my love
Fighting my passion with bars from above
Fighting my anger
Fighting my fear
Fighting with everything inside me just to steer clear
of the pain, the hurt, the complete idiocy of it all
Fighting the cliff praying to God i don't fall
Fighting a losing battle within this losing war
Surrendering my being so my soul soar

My World

the luminous sun glaring into my eyes
the smell of pure shit as i walk outside
the yelps of the children playing about
the taste of the air so bitter and tout
what once was so peaceful now pains my soul
and what once was so easy is now harder than coal
the world has changed in no one but me
for what is now absent undoubtedly...my glee
the sparkle has faded and the light has shut off
however i never give up that one day i will find
the glimmer of hope i so valiantly declined